The things that Matter :)

I know it has been a long time since my last entry but here it is. I recently just ran a half marathon this past Saturday and it felt amazing. I always thought that running a long race like 13.2 miles would be an impossibility. I have gained so much more motivation in the last few months that I would never have thought would be possible. I am so grateful for all my friends and family that have supported and encouraged me to reach farther and further for things. I have a new found motivation to achieve more things. When I lost the weight I initially thought it was all about a number but I realized that it was more than that....It was about digging deep within myself and finding the person that had been hiding from the world.

I guess the thing that I have to admit is that their are obstacles along the way. There are times that I have fear that I will gain the weight back and let people down but I realize now that it is all about a journey and pushing through the hard times and reaching farther and further ahead of us. We live in a world where people try to make us into people we aren't. I think the most important thing is to realize that we already are important.. We all are beautiful and extraordinary people. We all have our own gifts...We all have our own quirks as well and we need to be proud of the skin we are in and savor the experiences and opportunities we are all given in this life. When we want to give up....we got to just keep fighting and pushing through. We got to keep getting up when we feel like the world has knocked us down and we have to know that in the end the most important thing to remember is that we matter and always matter no matter what!

don't forget to smile and don't forget that I believe in you  and I love you!

LOOK AT YOURSELF AFTER WATCHING THIS.mp4

Five for Fighting - Superman

Half Marathon Adventure

I am pretty much the craziest person! I have been trying to find a way to make my job more meaningful and rewarding. I decided that I would do something that I have viewed as nearly impossible and sign up for a half marathon!! I am going to dedicate each mile to the kids on the team that I work with at. I have challenged all my kids to have good behavior so that they are able to support me on that day. I know that I am going to be in pain and be sweating up a storm but even if I am in tears by the finish line I know that it will all be worth it in the end. My training starts tomorrow....I feel that this will be a good way to show how far I have come since losing 30 freakin pounds. I will need all the support and motivation out there....so please give me all the help ya can and if you are in Layton City on October 8th be there at the finish line. Never doubt the impossible.. for the impossible things can always be made possible through faith. Love ya all :)

Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were all meant to shine, as children do.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Confidence

It is crazy how experiences in our lives can make us lose  confidence. I spent so much time fearing that I would fail. I feared that if I would put effort into something like losing weight I would fail and not be able to show others that I could follow through. I lacked confidence when it came to relationships as well. When I went to college I didn't go to meet someone to marry. I went there to get an education. I did meet guys and was in a relationship at one point but it wasn't a good experience. He always made comments about my appearance and would even stoop so low to saw that if I only looked like another girl things would be perfect. I am so mad at myself that I let the comments of one person make me have a different viewpoint of myself and doubt my ability. I have pushed so many people away over the years because I feared that they were like that other guy and would hurt me. I am so grateful to have a high level of confidence now and be able to say that I am so very grateful for the people currently in my life. They make me smile and laugh and have a high level of hope for anything that comes my way. I don't feel that I have to question anything now because I have a high level of faith and fear isn't even part of my vocabulary anymore. I guess my biggest wish would be that everyone would have a high level of confidence and not fear the impossible for I believe that with faith all things are possible. It just takes effort and in the end the effort is worth it. I plead to everyone that is reading this blog..please dig deep within your soul and find the confidence that you all deserve to have. I challenge you to look in the mirror everyday and not cringe at the sight that you see but that you will gaze at the person that is looking back at you and see a beautiful strong individual.

How did I know that Nutrisystem was the best path for me?

I kept telling myself all the time that this is the year I will get into shape. I tried just changing my diet and exercising but I never stuck with the diet part. I was having a conversation with my mom about how I was tired of always making excuses. I wanted this to be the year that I made the decision to change my life. I really wanted something that would be layed out for me. The thing about nutrisystem is that they send you all your meals and you add fruit and vegetables and protein throughout the day. I learned so much about portion control and now I am not on nutrisystem anymore but I know how much I can eat and what types of food I need to eat. It has changed my viewpoint about food. I now look at food in a new light....I don't look at it as something to make me feel better when I am stressed but I look at it as something that is giving me energy and nutrients and making my body work throughout the day.